8 Weeks of Accomplishments

I don't really know what to say about Landon turning two months old today. I feel like our lives have changed dramatically since he was born, changed again when he was one month old, and now he is two months old and I feel like he has been here for years! Lily has gone through a lot of changes (being with Mommy all day - which I'm sure she wishes wasn't the case some days!, having a new baby in her house that cries and distracts her Mommy and Daddy when she needs them, and starting preschool, which she is slowly beginning to love). I remember the first time Lily walked into the hospital room after Landon was born. I cried and felt so guilty that she wasn't my only child anymore...yet, at the same time, I was so happy that she was going to share her life with a little brother that would most likely become one of her best friends. She doesn't understand much, but her sweet heart and loving nature has adapted as well as I could have hoped for, while experiencing such a drastic summer. The first word she says when she wakes up is "baby" (I can't tell if she is asking where he is or hoping he isn't here! Ha-ha...I know it's not the latter) and when he cries, she immediately comes and tells me by yelling "mommy! mommy! mommy! baby! baby! baby!"...just in case I don't hear him. ;)

I have been very emotional lately and I remember feeling this exact same way after I had Lily. I feel so sad that I have to go back to work and leave not one child, but two of them. When you spend every waking hour with your children, it makes you appreciate them more and I have certainly done just that. Every hug, every kiss, every meltdown - I see it all. And I love it. If I had it my way, I wouldn't go back to work it all, but the truth is, I have a great job with awesome benefits and I need to be more thankful for that. However, you also appreciate your children just as much when you are away from them for some time, because you have such quality time with them. I know that if I continue to mentally prepare myself, that October 13th will be a bittersweet day. And I know that in just 8 weeks of Landon's life, we have made lots of progress, lots of memories, and have accomplished more than I ever thought we could handle.